Sorry Not Sorry

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. Two years ago, I met a woman at a bereaved moms retreat. She was beautiful and beaming, a soothed soul, the kind of women that … Lire la suite Sorry Not Sorry

Say Her Name

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. My daughter died two and a half years ago and everyday I’m fighting for her life. I’m fighting for her life to be acknowledged, … Lire la suite Say Her Name

Not Anymore

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. I used to have a little girl. The fairest of them all. A cuddler, a fighter, everything I had hoped for. I used to … Lire la suite Not Anymore

6 tips for Friends and Family Announcing a Pregnancy to a Still Mother

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise Consider that this pregnancy announcement might be difficult for her We understand that for you, this pregnancy is a wonderful news that you’re … Lire la suite 6 tips for Friends and Family Announcing a Pregnancy to a Still Mother

My grief

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. My grief rarely makes me cry and when it does, it’s never in public. My grief is rather stress, weariness, and anxiety … Lire la suite My grief

My valentine

 This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. Hey sunshine, Thanks for being my valentine ! You know I loved you from the start, baby girl. From the day I learned you were growing inside … Lire la suite My valentine

Surprise me.

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. So guys, we survived! We survived another Christmas without our precious children. I bet no one congratulated you, so let me do it : Great job, … Lire la suite Surprise me.

Hey mami

The first time i heard this song it was at the airport, waiting for my flight back home after meeting dr Bourdeaut for the first time. The meeting had gone perfectly, i was very enthusiast about this new doctor, and i had already made up my mind to transfer Soley to the Curie Institute under … Lire la suite Hey mami

Three Christmases

This article was first published on All that love can do, a website that provides support to families who continue their pregnancy after a fatal diagnosis, as a part of the 12 Days of Christmas series. Christmas Eve 2012 We’re spending the holiday at the family’s cottage in Brittany and I’ll be 24 in five days. For some reasons, … Lire la suite Three Christmases

18 months

18 months ago my daughter died. A year and a half. I still can’t figure this out. Yesterday i crawled in her crib, my secret shack, and i cried a for little while under the glass roof. I’m counting my feelings and the first one is doubt. Every time i try to write, my lines … Lire la suite 18 months

She is not

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. She is not a memory. She is not a sad story. She is not “just a baby”. She is a real person. She is my … Lire la suite She is not

There is comfort to be found in things

. This article was written for and first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. There is comfort to be found in things, when memories are so volatile, fleeting, unattainable. My daughter lived for eleven months, … Lire la suite There is comfort to be found in things

D-Day

October 18th is our D-Day. Two years ago the love of my life was diagnosed with a brain tumor. We fought until the end, but i knew since day one. I heard the doctor’s speeches and i read the internet pages and i knew. For all my restless researches and countless arguments, for all my … Lire la suite D-Day

Perdue

J’ai perdu mon soleil J’ai perdu ma lumière mon astre mon étincelle J’en ai perdu le sommeil J’ai perdu ma préférée Ma première mon unique mon espérée Le miracle pour lequel j’avais prié J’ai perdu la raison Perdu mon chemin ma boussole ma maison Échoué dans mon ultime mission J’ai perdu confiance Perdu ma bonne … Lire la suite Perdue