Soley keeps shining

Tout ce que peut l’amour disponible dès demain en librairies, fnac, amazon et partout où vous achetez vos livres. « Looks like we made itLook how far we’ve come, my babyWe mighta took the long wayWe knew we’d get there someday » Because you’re still the one #Soleykeepsshining#Toutcequepeutlamour#Michalon#cancerpédiatrique

No one brought up the subject during my pregnancy and when i did, they were quick to dismiss it. The general opinion was that this baby was going to be okay, that these things do not happen twice. Because it’s hard to acknowledge that sometimes they do, and it’s hard to listen to someone’s distress … Lire la suite Good news

My daughter died three years and eight days ago My daughter will be seven months in utero tomorrow Can broken be whole again ? Primo Levi never wanted to leave his childhood home And yet he found a way to come back from hell He killed himself forty-two years after Auschwitz His wife Lucia told the … Lire la suite Can broken be whole again 

3 years ago. In two days it would all be over. They had classified you palliative care and you had been in a coma for 3 weeks. I knew you were dying and that it wouldn’t be long now. I tried to make a plaster copy of your body, in yet another vain attempt to … Lire la suite 3 years ago

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. We weren’t married, Soley’s dad and I. We wanted to be, and we had everything — a ring, a date, and a venue — … Lire la suite Love after loss

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. Two years ago, I met a woman at a bereaved moms retreat. She was beautiful and beaming, a soothed soul, the kind of women that … Lire la suite Sorry Not Sorry

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. My daughter died two and a half years ago and everyday I’m fighting for her life. I’m fighting for her life to be acknowledged, … Lire la suite Say Her Name

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. I used to have a little girl. The fairest of them all. A cuddler, a fighter, everything I had hoped for. I used to … Lire la suite Not Anymore

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise Consider that this pregnancy announcement might be difficult for her We understand that for you, this pregnancy is a wonderful news that you’re … Lire la suite 6 tips for Friends and Family Announcing a Pregnancy to a Still Mother

The universe stole from me A daughter and a husband And nothing in the world could be found To make up for this loss Nor nothing Will ever be found. But then the universe sent me a man To hold my heart in his hands And with his kisses i breathed again And in his … Lire la suite most of the time

Je t’ai appelé bouton d’or mais je ne peux pas faire de bouquets de renoncules pour toi, c’est une fleur qui ne tient pas. Alors on fait des bouquets de jonquilles, de craspedia, de tournesols surtout. On fait avec, comme on peut, on s’en contente. Je te porte toujours, au creux de mon bras, mais … Lire la suite Fête des mères 2016

I kept her alive. Of course it took the both of us to make her, that afternoon in his small student room, and from that moment he was always there, and he always loved her. But for the 9 months I sheltered her, my body litteraly kept her alive. I fed her, protected her, cradled … Lire la suite Keep her alive 

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. My grief rarely makes me cry and when it does, it’s never in public. My grief is rather stress, weariness, and anxiety … Lire la suite My grief

 This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. Hey sunshine, Thanks for being my valentine ! You know I loved you from the start, baby girl. From the day I learned you were growing inside … Lire la suite My valentine

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. So guys, we survived! We survived another Christmas without our precious children. I bet no one congratulated you, so let me do it : Great job, … Lire la suite Surprise me.

The first time i heard this song it was at the airport, waiting for my flight back home after meeting dr Bourdeaut for the first time. The meeting had gone perfectly, i was very enthusiast about this new doctor, and i had already made up my mind to transfer Soley to the Curie Institute under … Lire la suite Hey mami

This article was first published on All that love can do, a website that provides support to families who continue their pregnancy after a fatal diagnosis, as a part of the 12 Days of Christmas series. Christmas Eve 2012 We’re spending the holiday at the family’s cottage in Brittany and I’ll be 24 in five days. For some reasons, … Lire la suite Three Christmases

18 months ago my daughter died. A year and a half. I still can’t figure this out. Yesterday i crawled in her crib, my secret shack, and i cried a for little while under the glass roof. I’m counting my feelings and the first one is doubt. Every time i try to write, my lines … Lire la suite 18 months

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. She is not a memory. She is not a sad story. She is not “just a baby”. She is a real person. She is my … Lire la suite She is not

This article was first published on Still Mothers. Still mothers is an online magazine for families who have experienced the death of a baby (ies) and are living without a child to raise. There was a new terror attack in Paris last night. A lot of my friends, both French and foreigners, were worried and asked if I was … Lire la suite This is my Vietnam

We spent a weekend in the countryside where Soley is buried. Adrien brought her flowers and we took pictures. When we came back to the cemetery on the second day, there was a rainbow on her side of the vault.

October 18th is our D-Day. Two years ago the love of my life was diagnosed with a brain tumor. We fought until the end, but i knew since day one. I heard the doctor’s speeches and i read the internet pages and i knew. For all my restless researches and countless arguments, for all my … Lire la suite D-Day

  « I’ll hold your hand till it goes cold. I’ll hold my tears until you go. With all the life that leaves your bones, it soaks the purpose from my own. Ohhh-ohh-oh, please don’t go… I love you more than you could know. You’ve got a home inside my soul. It’s like a mountain soaked … Lire la suite Please don’t go

J’ai perdu mon soleil J’ai perdu ma lumière mon astre mon étincelle J’en ai perdu le sommeil J’ai perdu ma préférée Ma première mon unique mon espérée Le miracle pour lequel j’avais prié J’ai perdu la raison Perdu mon chemin ma boussole ma maison Échoué dans mon ultime mission J’ai perdu confiance Perdu ma bonne … Lire la suite Perdue